Stubborn

Went shopping with David today, to get a tax program, and a few things mom needed at Zellers. Had to mail off an item too, that David sold from his online import site. Not earth shattering stuff, but time consuming. And there comes the problem.

Figure we were gone near two hours, maybe 90 minutes as we dawdled a bit. Not often we have the chance to get out and not rush back. We even stopped and grabbed some fancy breads, but coming home only highlighted that those days of leisure shopping excursions are pretty well over.

She had backed into a heater, she says, and in the course of it, knocked a vase over and some water onto my computer desk upstairs. Just a desk with some zip drives, and login notes. Nothing earth shattering, and the phone was on the floor. The vase broke, but she picked up the pieces and everything was in the kitchen, but it sent shivers down the old spine.

What if she had fallen, not just tripped a bit but held her feet? What is she had hit her head, or something? Maybe a lamp fall on her, or God only knows what?

It makes you not want to go out, but at the same time, it makes her feel like she is becoming a burden. Sort of a no win situation. If I go out, I fret, worry, and with cause I think. If I don't, then I put a lot of added work onto David, which isn't what he signed on for when we got married. Then too, it makes Mom unhappy, which isn't good for her health.

So for me, I suppose the answer is to grit the teeth, take lots more tums or rolaids, and not dawdle while shopping. Have to make it seem normal, and not let on that it is a nightmare now, to go out. I mean, the vase thing, could have been prevented IF I had been here, which I wasn't.

Now, that will haunt me, but is there another answer? I really wish I knew.