Stress

Ever have those days, when everything starts off just fine, or at least everything seems under control, then WHAM everything is the shits?

This was one of those days.

Had the Nurse in, who figures they don't need to come again, as things are back on track. The new Doctor seems satisfied, and we are on his short list, and even Mom seemed more talkative, more animated than she has been. Not so tired, or weak, and motored around not too bad, then suddenly it all changed.

She fell asleep, in her chair, which she rarely does, papers everywhere, then a few bouts of waking up, acting like she was not asleep, or that the newspaper was all over the floor, then back to sleep.

Then waking up, third, maybe fourth time, and totally disorientated. Started talking about Dad and my cousin, as if it was just yesterday, when Dad has been dead now, seven years today. My cousin was here, about a year ago, but not when Dad was around. Her voice got slurred, her movement became more disjointed, awkward. Her eyes looked blank, and she couldn't seem to focus for long on anything, then a bad choking spell, before she even had the juice glass to her mouth, and she continued to drink, even though choking.

Paramedics, and trip to the hospital later, and she is fine, as if nothing had happened. Meantime, I listen for every sound out of place, for every noise, that shouldn't be there.

My guts are in a knot, and I can feel my own heart still pounding, and we've been home for four hours now. Yet something happened, though the Doctor couldn't find anything wrong, at the ER. Blood work showed normal, ekg or whatever they call it, showed normal. Blood pressure was not elevated, and yet, now and then she goes off into a trance.

Short term memory is random now, and she can ask a question, get the answer, then ask again, acting like it is the first time she asked, or noticed.

And it won't get better, will it?